Saturday, March 1, 2014

Dad stuff.

Caught up trying to call two different people dad 

Dads are interesting
Moms are just who I am and all that I could ever be

Dads accidentally kill people in snowmobiles and build subways in Washington where 40 years later your future kitchen husband asks you out and then you have a baby which is why you got married in the first place

Dads were in Boy Scouts where they went camping like you did
And they teach you to always have a lot of stuff in your truck just in case
And they know that doing random acts of kindness might just make them feel better about failing themselves

Dads teach you that religion is fluid and that maybe you should question the status quo and teach yourself everything you can get your hands on instead of settling for what you've been taught to know

Dads are. Dads look at what needs to be done next more than what should have been done, because when they were children they were taught to never show shame and to only stand tall.

Dads might suffer from this because it makes them more quiet or more rebellious or more of a wreck than they ought to be, but when they talk it is listened to, and when what they say is judged, at least it isn't ignored.

Some dads might avoid women; but women should not be afraid to be like dads.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Us.

My mother and sister and I
Are great, fantastic writers
We write about
Fried green tomatoes
And big fancy Easter hats
And godamn
We'll never be published 

Mother-
Loss of innocence
Change of perspective
Now 
Ish

Sister-
Sports
Success
Next

Me-
Loss of innocence
Changes of perspective
Next
Ish

God bless.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Portland.

When I have a moment of space from you I'll gather up what you were to me

A place of solace I made, not found
In a panicked term

A quiet ravens nest I made in the center of a three-ringed circus

A violent overdose of tension that forced me to seek peace internally.

For a moment I'll look desperately to the heavens-
Like so many places before you-
And beg myself to remember.