Of now

Stuck between a rock and a hard place

Stuck between

Remember how we used to be

Liz Marie?

Heading out, adventure!

Let's get weird talking to people in trees

Let's

Wear headdresses and listen to modern folktronica

Mostly what I miss is the empty.

Pit of stomach, Walls of chest,

Death of hope,

It's been a while! Golly!

Inside out me was raw

But a different type of striking

A different type of beautiful

Like watching something small

Die brutally

Dinner theatre!

How do I keep but leave?

Girlfriends

Girls as friends

You're the best temporary fix I've ever had

I have issues

Hair issues

Nails issues

Skin issues

Inner labial issues

God dammit you get it

But then you fuck me like any guy

And my hair is too much for me

I bite all my nails off

I ignore my toner moisturizer makeup

And I fuck anything that moves

Girls as friends 

You are useless

What happens.

Spent inside your head

The walk home seems mysterious

ly slow and I am grateful for the time travel

"Nothing you can say or do

Can help me now

I've gone too far

I can't go back"

My early teenage reverie is a mantra 

To me still

And I keep saying to myself in singsong 

This is happening,

This is happening!